Cultivating Rootedness In Times Of Upheaval

During the last few months, images of roots came through during my meditations. Initially, I saw tree roots underneath the ground. Then I began to see myself as a mystical tree with golden roots that spread out from my heart, my crown and my feet. These golden roots seemed to connect to lands and spaces on planet Earth and beyond. It felt as though I was bringing my energy from the past and future into my present. The energy of this experience felt invigorating and expansive. Another recurrent vision since this year started is that of golden fragments in space that are collapsing. They look like pieces of golden glass or of an energetic puzzle. As the fragments crumble and fall down, the golden energy in them looks like a stream of liquid gold that merges into the core of Earth. The energy of this vision feels freeing. My shoulders soften giving me a sense of relief. However, a week ago, I also felt an uneasiness in my belly. A part of me was not delighted with the collapse. What will be left? What if there is no floor to stand on? That part of me seemed scared. As I tended to her, I heard the sound of the strong wind outside of my window inviting me to look at the trees. Their branches were swinging with the strong wind, yet their trunks remained firmly rooted. The part of me that was scared of the collapsing fragments did not feel grounded like the trees outside of my window. So, I was guided to visualize the powerful wind aligning with my breath. "You cannot control what happens outside of you, but you can control your breath," I heard. So, as I welcomed the wind's flow in and through my heart to merge with my breath, with my own inner flow, I also welcomed that synergy, that sacred flow to gently move the fear I was sensing in my belly. "It's okay, be free...flow with this sacred wind," I said while taking deep breaths. And then my energy settled. 

The next day when I tuned in, I was reminded of the collapse in the collective. An image showed up of a scaffolding coming apart. It reminded me of systems and structures that are shifting. Some are shifting in a good way. My husband's work team is very different from how it was a few years ago. There is new leadership, new energy and a welcoming of different ways to approach the work. There is a strong call for authenticity and common wealth. I also thought of the opposite cases: funding being cut from agencies and organizations, people being massively deported, many losing their jobs. As I thought of these very different scenarios, I felt guided to bring my awareness back to what is collapsing within me. I was shown ways in which some of my relationships are expanding, refining and renewing. Elements of my work are also shifting. As I bring myself more wholly, I feel more authentic energy flowing in my interactions with others. There is newness in some of my routines and rituals as well. Some of this collapse did not feel great while it was happening, yet it was very helpful.  As I write this, I am reminded that several years ago, I opened my sacred heart and asked it to allow the collapse of what I thought to be true about myself that did not tell the whole picture. I said "yes" to my unfolding while welcoming unknown new inner connections. 

In my experience, the heart-led collapsing, although it feels challenging at times, has also allowed me greater freedom and expansion, greater integrity and clarity of who I am, what I am, and what I'm here to do. Next, a question arose - how do I expand this experience into the outer world when a lot of the external crumbling and collapsing is not done through and from the sacred heart? When I asked this question, I remembered the experiences of people I know that are shifting from their hearts. Many are stepping into new things that bring them joy. Some are reconnecting with parts of themselves and/or wanting to renew their relationship with their ancestry. Others are releasing certain habits and bit by bit, establishing new routines, perhaps establishing sacred rituals. I also know that some people that have been significantly affected by the external chaos, are moving through the grief, opening their hearts and allowing the starting over, the feeling of a blank slate to be an opportunity for pure potential. 

As I felt deeper into this, I saw a vertical column of light that went through my center channel from my crown to my root. From my heart, it went all the way up into the heart of source and all the way down into the heart of mother Earth. I have been seeing this during meditation for a long time, only this time, I also saw a horizontal column of light crossing the vertical one in the center of my chest. And from this crossing point, a sphere of light began to grow with my breath expanding both colums of light wider and wider. The light emanating from both columns and the expanding sphere in the center filled my body and my energy field in all directions.

Then, I called upon my sacred roots that I had reclaimed from the sacred lands on Earth and beyond. I saw these golden roots carrying pure, loving wisdom. "Welcome the ancient wisdom into your newborn foundation," I heard my sacred heart say. My light language was flowing more expansively and a new song came through. I sang for a moment, I called upon the high frequency of the elements (earth, fire, water, air and ether) to support the alignment of my inner flow with the outer flow. I felt supported, loved and guided. 

The question of how to navigate the external chaotic energy affecting us all is not easy to answer. I can say that for me, the inspiration to continue to experience joy, evolve, push back, stand in my power and support others to do the same is found through rootedness. For a while I thought that I was rooted because I was able to ground and get into a high vibrational state. The portal eclipse that ended yesterday helped me innerstand rootedness more deeply. The recurrent vision of roots coming to me for months was an invitation to anchor in ALL that I AM that had been integrating, which includes what I have been and what I will be. I was invited to call all that energy, my sacred roots from all spaces, times, dimensions and realities to anchor them in my heart and in my being in the present. 

I am not denying or dismissing the chaos and the external oppressive energy that at times triggers parts of me. Although not always easy, I aim to welcome with validation the uncertainty, the grief and the anger and then I call upon the high frequency of the earth, air, water, fire and ether within me and outside of me to help my inner flow move with the outer flow. Everyday, I am setting the intention to remember that which I have anchored. My I AM presence.